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Crushed

CREDITS
Producer: Holly Near
Production Coordinator: Alison de Grassi
Graphic Designer: Sara Glaser
Cover Photograph: Irene Young
Collage Photographs: Jesse Van Antwerp
Mastering Engineer: Paul Stubblebine

THE PLAYERS
The numerous players on this recording are identified in the packaging.

 

 

 

 

 

"OK, OK.... Some of you have asked about all the love songs that haven't made it to the other collections. So here they are. I had no idea there were so many. Turn the volume up real loud and clean house!"

Although Holly is known for her work in social change music, this moving (and often humorous) look at love and relationships is a delightful surprise. These 19 songs, covering styles from pop/rock to country to jazz, round out the series of collections released over the last few years.


TRACK LISTING

Crushed
How Bold
The Promise
Don't Hold Back
How Was I To Know
Bony Jaw Baby
Bird Gonna Fly
Plain And Simple Love
Back Off
Fire In The Rain
Right To Love
The Letter
Sit With Me
Backing Off And Pulling Away
Dancing Bird
Lonely Days
Room For Me
Once Or Twice
I Really Didn't Want To


LYRICS
The lyrics below are the songs that Holly either wrote or co-wrote only. Lyrics written by others, which appear on the CD, are not listed for copyright reasons. Click the name of the song to open the lyrics.

Crushed
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Don't Hold Back (1987) 

I'm so crushed
Oh I'm so crushed
I'm crushed
I'm crushed out on you

We have been longtime friends
And we are best of friends
And we will be goodtime friends always
And you'll never know that

The way you have looked at me
How you look so lovingly
It seems you are looking at me always
But you'll never see that

We've seen hard times
Never stepping on any lines
But you ignore the signs always

Don't you want to know that


How Bold
Holly Near / © Hereford Music
From Don't Hold Back (1987) 

How bold! We've hardly met and already we are naked
How bold! Fully dressed you tell me your name
How bold! I shake your hand and already we are lovers
How bold! Cool and calm, I tell you my name

How bold!  My hand is still in yours and already my heart is breaking
How bold!  Nonchalant, we discuss the rain
How bold!  Your hand is still in mine and already the car is waiting
How bold! I kiss your mouth and I feel no shame
Taxi drivers seem to know
When to let a woman weep in silence

How bold! Your body haunting mine and already I am dying
How bold!  Turn the car 'round in the rain
How bold!  I find the place where your eyes had made me tremble
How bold!  The empty street cries out your name
Taxi drivers seem to know
When to let a woman weep in silence

The Promise
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Don't Hold Back (1987)

Can't you see a promise just makes us feel good now
Then tomorrow, if we break up, one of us will be asking
How could you do this to me darling
When we promised life a rose
The promises that lovers make are wishful thinking I suppose

How can anyone know if love is forever
Or only for a moment
How can anyone know
Stay with me awhile, it may be a long while

Maybe we'll live together and the years will have their way
One morning we will wake up and one of us will say
How could you do this to me darling
Did you know it from the start
The promises we never made were outlasted by the heart

Can't you see a promise just makes us feel good now
And we grew up with the notion that lovers must take a vow
But I can tell you in this moment as life unfolds each day
The way that we've been making love
I don't want to go away

Don't Hold Back
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Don't Hold Back (1987)

You may be shy darlin'
You may like to wait until somebody else comes on strong
And then you can just go along
But this time won't you change your ways
Knock on my door for days and days

Don't hold back
This time baby don't hold back
Don't hold back
Don't hold back on me

You've got the moves darlin'
There's no need to wait until somebody comes unwound
While you're just hanging around
It's time for you to make your move
I'm telling you honey now, I approve

I know you may be shy
You may be waiting for my sign
But I hope you can make it across the line

How Was I To Know
Words by Holly Near; Music by Holly Near & Jeff Langley / © Hereford Music

From Don't Hold Back (1987)

How was I to know you would call me a waterfall
And give me words like rubies
After all, I am a poet's daughter
And words come to me as no surprise

How was I to know my heart would tremble and fall
And give a glow like fire
After all, I am a candlemaker's daughter
And fire comes to me as no surprise

How was to know you would crash into my mind
Like children hit the water at summer time
I am a pilot's daughter
And a crash comes to me as no surprise

How was l to know your memory would shimmer and steam
And leave a night of wonder on my dreams
I am a boilermaker's daughter
And steaming comes to me as no surprise

Bony Jaw Baby
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Don't Hold Back (1987)

Bony jaw baby put your face near mine
Smooth skin cooling my burning desire
I walk around pretending I'm not mad for you
I'm a liar, I'm a liar, I'm a liar on fire for my bony jaw baby

Bony jaw baby put your hand in mine
Smooth skin cooling my burning desire
I walk around pretending I'm not mad for you
I'm a liar on fire for my bony jaw baby

Laugh, I laugh at the doorman at dawn
He's been up all night and I know how he feels
Watching for thieves to enter the door
I steel myself against losing it all
And more and more and more and more

Dance, I dance, in the light of the moon
I've been up all night and I like how it feels
Waiting for you to enter my room
I warn myself against falling too fast
Too soon, too soon, too soon, too soon

And you come dancing my back door baby
I pretend I'm busy painting my life
I try to act like there's nothing going on
But it's hard to hide when I shine like a light

Bony jaw baby on the cool of the floor
Steam is rising and I'm ready for more
I storm around swearing
That you're just my friend
But I'm a liar on fire for my bony jaw baby

Mountain Song
Words by Holly Near; Music by Holly Near and John Bucchino / © Hereford Music

From Don't Hold Back (1987)

Bird gonna fly even though you build a cage
And a child's gonna try again
Even as the curtain comes down on this empty stage of my life
I was walking all alone when the town came to an end
And there I met a stranger who treated me like a friend

And now I know there's a reason to make the music soar
You opened up a dream when you opened up my door
A friend was missing from the life I left behind
Sing with me forever and I won't mind

Star's gonna shine even when the clouds are low
And this child's gonna try again
Even as the curtain comes down on the late show
I was sitting on the edge of night
When I felt the shadow of dawn descend
And there I met a stranger who treated me like a friend

Sing on, sing forever more, sing with me forever

 

Plain and Simple Love
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Don't Hold Back (1987)

No fancy fantasy
No magic mystery
No wide eyed wonder
Just a plain and simple love

You see me just the way l am
I know you as you are
We're living down on earth
Just a plain and simple love

Just a plain and simple love
My lonely days are through
I can breathe now, a sigh of relief
I am completely loved by you

No frantic facade
No lies at the start
No great expectations
Just a plain and simple love

Oh the years of pretending
To please and impress
Left such a scar of loneliness
Too mighty to confess

 

Back Off
Words by Holly Near; Music by Holly Near & Carrie Barton/ © Hereford Music

From Speed of Light (1982)

If you want to hold me, hold me with open arms
The fact that I've got self respect is no cause for alarm
But if you've got a game to do, a lie or a sham or a trick or two
You better back off

If you want to love me, love me with all your heart
If you want a journey, I've got a good stride, that's a start
But if you've got a game to do, a lie or a sham or a trick or two
You better back off

Fool, you're wasting your time
Got evil thoughts climbing in your mind
Fool, you're walking down danger street
Ain't nobody's love gonna be there
On the other end to meet you

Sure you're looking pretty, the prettiest I've ever seen
But pretty doesn't do too much good if honey you treat me mean
So if you've got a game to do, a lie or a sham or a trick or two
I think you better back off

(You give me inspiration, a woman is a work of art)
Fire in the Rain
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Fire in the Rain (1981)

Fire in the rain, fire in the rain
You're like a fire in the rain
So unexpected, I came upon your love

You came into my life
And I had my eyes wide open
Unintending to burn, you offered your light
You offered the warmth of love
And I had to learn how to feel the heat
And not get burned.

I got too close one night
With no plans for heart left open
Unintending to change, I had nothing to fear
But the music she let me hear
Like an ancient fife, had a haunting tune
And it changed my life

Sometimes I stare for hours
Like the last to leave the fire on a winter night
Sometimes I dance before you
Like a firefly who is caught in your light

Unintending to burn, you offered your light
You offered the warmth of love
And I had to learn how to feel the heat
And not get burned.

I remember you
Stronger than the wind
Brighter than the moon
Faster than the night

Sit With Me
Words by Holly Near; Music by Holly Near & Adrienne Torf / © Hereford Music

From Fire in the Rain (1981)

Finding a friend in you to wake me in the morning
Finding a friend in you to travel through the night
Finding a friend in you to be there in the morning
Finding a friend in you to hold me through the night
When I'm frightened by the work that I must do
When I'm frightened, I know wherever I am
I can call on you, when I'm frightened, I can call on you

Please sit with me through the night
And tell me it's all right to fall apart with you
‘Cause I'm so tired and I'm so scared
I'm so sad about the world tonight
And sometimes I feel I can't defend myself, my love, or my light
The thought of surviving just makes me want to die
Come lay beside me, hold me while I cry

Please sit with me through the night
Tell me it’s all right to fall apart with you
‘Cause I'm so tired and I'm so scared
I need to grieve and weep and scream and moan
And sometimes I feel I can't defend myself, my life, or my home
But you know tomorrow, I'll be back on my feet
It's not in me, my friend, to accept defeat

But won't you please sit with me through the night
And tell me it's all right to fall apart with you

Finding a friend in you to wake me in the morning
Finding a friend in you to travel through the night
Finding a friend in you who will be there in the morning
Finding a friend in you to hold me through the night

Backing Off and Pulling Away
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Watch Out! (1984)

When you see me backing off and pulling away
It's 'cause I love you
Guess that I don't know how to be just friends
You see me backing off and pulling away
It's 'cause I love you
I'm an actress, but I don't know how to pretend

We lingered too long in a love that should have only been a friendship
Now we're trying hard to move it on with a bit of grace
I was sure it would be easy, a dance I've done before
But I forget the steps every time I see your face

I say to myself in the night "Grow up" and I know my heart is taken
By the love of my life who is in my arms without illusion
Affairs have a way of passing and I'll be glad when I let this one go
But I can't make my mind and heart come to the same conclusion

Dancing Bird
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Speed of Light (1982)

I watch you flying, I hear you sing
You bring the music into my heart
You are a healer, your colors ever changing
And the melody you play becomes a part of you

Your body soaring, now you catch the wind
I see the sky in the palm of your hand
Wings of an eagle, the heartbeat of a dove
Slowly I begin to understand - you really are a...

Dancing bird, flying there before me
Dancing bird, pouring out the music
Dancing bird, I'm watching you, watching you, watching
Dancing bird, singing out the love

I find I'm sinking deep down inside me
A journey past sounds that I have never heard
Someone is changing right this very moment
And tomorrow I may be a bird - I think I'll be the...

I look away, I look back
And there you are a flower in the morning light
Next you are an animal creeping through the night
Then you are a star shining down from the sky
But when I look again, it's true that I cannot deny
You really are a...

 

Lonely Days
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Speed of Light (1982)

Does everybody wonder sometimes if nobody likes them
Or is it just something that I feel on my down days
On my why aren't any of my friends hanging around days
Why didn't I call ahead to make a few plans days
I feel alone

Does everybody wonder sometimes if nobody likes them
Or is it just something that I feel
On the line days on my wasn't it just last week I had a good time days
How am I going to get myself out of this state of mind days
I play a song

And I think of those lonely days and broken hearts
And learning to live alone
Those lonely days, a child at heart
Learning to leave my home
Those lonely days, where to start
First time I had to face the world alone

Does everybody wonder sometimes if nobody likes them
Or is it just something that I feel
On my blue days
On my why can't I seem to face my things to do days
How come the rock and roll doesn't seem to pull me through days
I dance alone (And I think of those . . . )

And I think of those lonely days and broken hearts
And learning to live alone
Those lonely days, a child at heart
Learning to leave my home
Those lonely days, where to start
First time I had to face the world alone
With my heart full of tears
Pushing against my chest,
Crying out all those years

Room For Me
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Speed of Light (1982)

Hearts calling, free falling
Love making, earth shaking
The door is always open, we leave the lanterns out
Always room for loving, always room for doubt
There is room for me

Room to change directions, to have a brand new start
Room to love another and to have a broken heart
Room to hold you by the fire, and hear you call it home
Knowing there's a place for me 'cause I have some room of my own

Room to bring you comfort when the days have got you down
Room to hear you speak your mind or never make a sound
Room to go away a while and maybe not return
Well, if it's done then let it go, if it's not then let it burn

I may have to walk out the door any minute
'Cause I have trouble getting air
But walking back in, I'm able to breathe
Finding love standing there (It's like...)

Once or Twice
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Fire in the Rain (1981)

Sometimes you say a look will cross my eye
While we're sitting close to touch and talking
Like my heart is saying, don't go it all the way
Save that kind of feeling for another day
That kind of loving can make a traveler stay

Sometimes you say a look will cross my eye
While I sit alone and you are playing
Like my brain is saying don't play that song today
Not while I'm trying to pack and get on my way
That kind of music can make a fiddler stay

I guess I could get up and I would walk right out the door
And maybe I would forget you before I reach the highway

But sometimes a loving look comes across your eye
You're the sweetest thing that's ever touched me
I'm wishing I had met (loved) you later on in my life
But damned if your arms around me don't feel nice
Maybe if it happens once it can happen twice

I Really Didn't Want To
Holly Near / © Hereford Music

From Speed of Light (1982)

Well, I'm afraid I'm falling in love with you
And I really didn't want to, I really didn't want to
Afraid I'm falling in love with you
And I really didn't want to, sweet one

Jumping like a trampoline, dancing like Nureyev
Singing like a street corner choir
Floating like a summer cloud, cooking like a party crowd
Falling farther out by the hour

Singing like a mockingbird, groovin' like a radio
Hopping like a kangaroo
Playing like a tambourine, mushing like a movie screen
Tell me what am I going to do

Afraid I'm calling on the telephone
Afraid I'm getting on the airplane
Afraid I'm standing on your front porch
Hugging and kissing you madly




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